we had already talked- said things about it.
we had already spoken of things we'd do- how we'd do it.
but today I saw that a friend of mine got engaged.
she's my age, she started same time I did.
and now she's preparing to start forever with someone she loves.
everyone here talks about how wrong that is.
I used to talk about how wrong that is.
to do it that fast,
to do it so young.
it is fast,
it is young.
but I think I see it now.
four months ago I wouldn't even acknowledge my feelings.
I couldn't let myself see him like that.
but now I can't stop telling him how I feel
and now he's talking to me about kids- our kids.
he's asking me for ring sizes, asking me my favorite stone.
maybe I should be scared
maybe I should feel strange.
but I don't.
I don't want anything other than him forever.
I think I see it now.
maybe I'm just hormonal
maybe I'm just stupid
but I know he's the one.
he said he'd get down on one knee for me
and then he did
my heart stopped for a second.
not because I was scared
but because it felt right
even joking, it felt so incredibly right.
there's still so much more time that needs to pass,
there's still so much more work to be done.
and I'll do it- gladly.
he's the one, I know it now.
I can't believe myself- how sure I am about this.
but I just look at him and there's no question.
it's fast.
we're young.
but I've found him.
